She is like the wind that softly brushes against your skin on a mild summer day. I feel her energy hit me like the heat of the sun in July. Before she was born I had the unfortunate experience of slipping on water that spilled on the floor in the classroom I was working in. I was in the middle of my 37Th week of pregnancy. Anxiously awaiting the arrival of my baby girl, My second child, I think that fate might have planned that to occur. Sometimes it makes no sense to me when people say things happen for a reason. But I really believe people have a point. Would she have come anyways or was it the slip on the water in the room. She was carried in the water that protected her from the outside world inside me. I felt her swim inside me like a dolphin on a mission to take on ships on the sea. She was always tumbling and kicking her tail fins behind her. I was aware of her presence so early on and I feel that sometimes we feel each other spirits. Its like how they would describe E.T and his relationship with Elliot. Of course she was not an alien from outer space. Infant's really do enter our world like they come from the great unknown. She was clearly meant to be and was made to be my daughter. She would become the mi nature version of my self. She would come with her own manual for how to care for her. She would break out of the water inside my body into the world of life. Born into life as a pieces. The amazing transforming waterfall of her life from a cell of water smaller then a dew drop before my eyes captivates my soul. I feel so serene in the oneness and peace of mind she brings to me. The milestones of times i have witnessed as she since her debew on her birthday on March 4Th 2003 is so breath taking. I just helped to co create the amazing human being she is. I was responsible for the beginning but it is her own spirit that carries her. I have spent nights watching her sleep. I have memories her finger prints. I have inscribed in my head the first time she called me mama and knew what she was saying at 10 months old. I have hear a song in my heart pouring out of me that is filled up inside. Inspired by her vision to be creative, passionate and loyal to her friends and family.
Yesterday I was watching her learn to roll over, then crawl, then walk on the tips of her toes. Then let go as if she as she knew she wanted to do it in her own time but the correct way. Amazingly she would go about that same spirit as she faced some medical concerns as a young baby. At only 2 months old had come down with an infection that was found to be a Reflux in her Kidney. She would undergo a tremendous healing transformation. I would under go along with my husband the ability to surprise myself in how I could take on the most unimaginably worst fear for a parent, a child being sick. A baby that not even knowing what happened would be poke, prodded and catheterized. I remember feeling so grateful she would never have to remember that as she grew up. She also went through a 2 year period of developing febrile seizures as her bodies result of dealing with fever spikes and fighting of infections. But her bravery shown through like a ship during a storm. My patience and understand and faith in things beyond my control developed as well.
In a little over 2 weeks from now my baby girl will enter the milestone of turning 8. Why do I think of 8 as a milestone? Perhaps its because when I was 8 I got my ears pierced. I actually remember the faces of people from that time. I remember starting into the formation of potential life long friends. I was starting to see myself as a part of something bigger then myself in a world I had only seen a small window in. I see her just looking at the small parts of life but all of a sudden she is opening the window. She is taking leaps and strides against the odds of her ability to learn how to read, write, even stay unique to herself without the need to follow other. Although she loves the crowd to follow her, she stays true to herself even so. Her wisdom inspires me and I find myself eager to see more of what this amazing fish from the water can do.
